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Look at my eyes, I'm telling you to stop.
Telling me I can't, Making me believe I can't.
Look into my eyes, growing cold with fear,
You're telling me I won't, and now the tears appear.
I'm feverish, when I'm around every one of you.
I can't be afraid forever of what is Brand new.
I have to venture, out into the great unknown.
Someday I will and I won't look back again,
I know.
Scream atop your lungs, I heard you twice before.
Telling me to stop dreaming as much.
My mind can't focus, on what you are saying.
Because I know I'm alone, I must stop obeying.
Now look into my heart, I'm telling you I can.
Please don't be afraid for me, I know where I stand.
I'm telling you I will, and now you're crying for me.
I'm anxious, I'm nervous, I need your support.
I can't fear forever to make those retorts.
You know, when I go, I'll always come back to you.
You know.
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As a person walks through like, she meets many companions, some are lovers, some are friends, some are haters... some are enemies. You know I realized today some things about myself: I am stronger than I think I am, I can easily adapt to change, if I am willing to make the change for the benefit of myself and others, I am stubborn, I don't back down, and I am creatively consistent. All this time that I have been dreading making that first step toward a four year university, and stepping back further in my thoughts, I have only been shying away from my own reality: I can do it. I will do it, for myself. It will be better for me. It is what I want.
A very wise person, of whom I think highly of has supported my decisions to enter a four year university before he truly knew me, and in ways I think he now knows me better than myself, and others close to me. He is no doubt my rock, in most matters, and is easy to talk to. I trust him. I love him. He is my friend.
I find it hard to believe that someone so important to me, so great in my mind would try to help my cause... But that's just him, he may not always be there the moment I need him, but he'll always be there to help clean the damage from it, and bring me back to the world, and I him. Always.
Only god knows we need each other, for a friend like he is one of a kind.
Today as we were conversing about the 2 colleges I have chosen to consider, each of them far from here, and far from each other. As I easily typed the reasons why I had chosen these schools, which were obviously good. I started to also view the bad, the possible... the constant fear in my head of no tomorrow, pain, suffering, and things that COULD happen, and as I typed them to him, he said to me:

Leap, and the net will appear.

My mind was silenced. And how? How could this short quote silence all that was traveling through my mind? Because it is true. To be successful, to follow my dreams, to LIVE; I need to make these changes, to explore and do all I want to do, while I still can. Life is not going to wait for me. I just have to leap. I know it's what I want. The only thing holding me back is trust in the world. And I'll never trust it, if I don't test it.

Thank you friend.

Feel free to shed thoughts and feelings about this quote. Does it fit something currently going on in your life at the moment?